What would you do if you were my dad please need opinions and help?

Ok 3 years ago my mom died of cancer I was 25 and moved back home to take a year off. Since then ive not been able to find a job im still unemployed and broke. I play golf with my dad sometimes exercise try to keep busy but usually have no gas to go anywhere. I get real depressed and lately we have no food because my dad is cheap. The thing is my dad is going to get 650,000 in insurance plus another 40k from my mom dying. To me this kills me I've never said anything about it but I can't afford junior college and or pursue anything I want to where he gets everything! He is very nice to me buys me clothes now and again and is a great guy. But seriously we argue about stuff he doesn't buy food and I cant even get a job at McDonald's, I've tried believe me. I feel he is a selfish guy taking everything for himself 700,000 k is some serious cash to get from someone dying she was my mom and he is not going to share any of it maybe he paid into it? What is your take on all of this have told him some Business ideas and my interest in going back to junior college im 29 and he tells me to take 1 class and maybe he is right? Please help I never wanted a handout in life but I hate injustice and unfairness also comments such as get off your *** and get a job will be reported thanks.